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Published on August 22, 2019
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Can meditation help you set clearer boundaries? Perhaps (Part 2)

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“Yes, this is good, let’s begin. Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat,” I say to myself. [Where am I? In a yurt on a Sunday with 20 other women, practicing setting boundaries and the discomfort of that in Part 1]

Meditation bowls make the practice easier

I brought this back from my trek in Nepal- it makes the loveliest hum

I sit cross-legged on my cushion at my Women’s Dharma Meditation circle, while Yoda Carol guards the door and taps the bowl to begin the session.

“I love meditating so much, I’m damn lucky to be here. I wonder how I’ll go today? Hopefully I’ll go deep… breathe in, breathe out. Repeat. Ooh, it feels so good already, how great to do it with so many other women… did any of them bring dessert for lunch, or just lots of salad? I’m glad I made my brownies, such a cool recipe, remember that week I made them 3 times for those birthday parties that was fun perhaps I’ll go to that party next weekend… WAIT!

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Welcome back Brain. Shit, it’s easy to stray isn’t it? I wonder how everyone else is going? Some of them have been coming for the whole 10 years, so they’d have to be… WAIT!

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Settle down. Sit quietly. Focus. Thank god for the cushion, it’s pretty comfy, or else my back would ache. Maybe I’ll lie down for the next…

WAIT!

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

I bet Yoda Carol doesn’t wander like this. She’s such a legend. Imagine if I could be more like her? I could travel the world giving talks and leading meditation circles, that would be cool, apart from all the airplane flights which are so bad for the environment but maybe… WAIT!

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Except clearly I have no will power, or rather, brain power. Perhaps too much brain power?? That’s why it won’t shut up. I need to be more disciplined with it don’t I? Well yes, that’s why I’m meditating…

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Oh man: brain boundaries suck. This is HARD. It must be nearly time to stop? My legs are aching. Do I need to cough? That would be b-a-d. Very disruptive. Like that time in yoga when I tipped over and knocked the person beside me, who knocked the person beside them, remember that, when we lived in Sydney all those years ago, when was it actually, 1995? ’96? Time is flying isn’t it? Can’t believe it’s… WAIT!

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

I am really bad at this.

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Breathe in, breathe out. Repeat.

Ooh, was that the bell?”

In gratitude for determination and prayer bowls, G xO

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    • bone&silver says

      Thanks Donna. I want to follow Yoda Carol around like a little monkey, sitting on her shoulder, watching everything she does, and eating dessert too of course šŸ˜‰

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    • bone&silver says

      Iā€™m glad to hear itā€™s not just me… and the complaints about discomfort began immediately in the next meditation šŸ™„
      Thanks for joining in šŸ˜Š

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  7. zlotybaby says

    Ha! A pretty accurate and entertaining description of how it’s like. Good luck and keep trying! šŸ™‚

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  9. acflory says

    -giggles helplessly- I’m sorry, I know I shouldn’t laugh, but this was so funny…and so real! I simply can’t meditate. The only way I’ve found to quiet the brain is to do something with my hands – pottery, weeding, anything repetitive. Not quite zen, but it’s the closest I’ll ever get. I hope you have better willpower than me. šŸ™‚

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      • acflory says

        Haven’t done pottery in decades but I remember how refreshed I’d feel after a class. I guess if you became frustrated with the quality of what you produced, that’d negate the benefit, but just the act of working with clay should help.

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  10. Unleashing the Cougar says

    I agree – and I did read something not that long ago that the point of meditation is not necessarily to still the mind, as the eastern religions would have it, but to simply allow it to be. Stillness comes in many forms, and through activity as acflory says is onw. I also love ‘flow’ – the state you enter when you are perfectly occupied in a task or piece of work. I haven’t meditated in the form you describe for years now. I do prefer activity, but I have not totally given up on cultivating the state of stillness.

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    • bone&silver says

      How I love ‘flow’. When I look up from my keyboards, and 3 hours have flown by: that is the best feeling! I’m hoping meditation will inspire me more to blog/be creative/feel clear about what I want to say… watch this space šŸ˜‰ xx

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